Friday, October 22, 2010

This is what crazy people look like

Just in case you were wondering who would be crazy enough have nine kids...

That would be us.

I love being a mom. That's all I've ever wanted to do.

But, being a mom to nine kids is different then being a mom to one or two.

Reality is that having nine kids can be very hard.

But you probably already guessed that, huh?

We don't expect anyone to help us out because we are the ones that wanted these kids. They are ours and we should be the ones taking care of them.

But, sometimes we would give just about anything for a break from all this.

Especially when it seems like our ship is going down...and fast.

Because sometimes the work seems like too much.

When the laundry takes on a life of it's own.

When all the dishes are dirty.

When the house is a disaster zone so much that you are either stupid or brave to walk though a room in the dark...cuz it is like a minefield.

When all the balls that I've been trying to juggle start falling.

When I have a day that I just feel so overwhelmed with all that needs to be done.

And I get depressed that I don't have enough time to fit it all in.

And I feel under pressure to "do it all" and "be it all".

Or jealous when I look at other families that have a lot of family support.

Or see other mothers that have time for hobbies.

Or when my kids screw up and I feel totally inadequate and become convinced that I'm failing at my job of motherhood.

But, somehow, we still go on.

And thankfully the negative feelings go away.

We get back on track.

We refocus on the positives in our life.

On the fun things.

On the important things.

On all the people/things that we have been blessed with.

On our relationships and how much we love each other.

We still have bad days.

And it is still hard.

Would I do it all over again?

Hell no.

Ha!  Totally kidding!

Of course I would.

I love all these kids to little freakin bits and pieces.

Plus, someday, they will all move out...

Right? ;)


Rose @ Confessions of a Curbshopaholic said...

You totally crack me up! Having come from a family of 6 girls in a teeny tiny house with only 1 bathroom I can attest that large families are a lot closer and way more fun than small. Now mind you, I only had 2 kids so I don't know what it's like to RAISE a large family; but I truly love our big family gatherings for every holiday with all the gang. My poor husband came from a small family and calls my side the horde. We laugh at that and I take it as a compliment.
You and your 'crazy" husband are creating many wonderful memories right now for your own horde, and just think of all the wonderful/funny times you will get to share at future get togethers. Well worth a little craziness now. (and yes, they do move out eventually) But you will always have the best family parties; that's for sure!

Kathi said...

I've read most of your blog in the last week. I first found you when searching for ideas for my son's court of honor (I googled it and YOU came up! Yay!). Since then, I've been reading your blog and I must say I am so impressed by your creativity, humor and the love for your family which shows in each of your posts. You're amazing. (And I need tutorials from you more often LOL)

Ronda Batchelor said...

I only have six kids, but I know how you feel. I read your post to my husband and about halfway through he said, "Did you write this?" Thanks for sharing,

Nike@ChooseToThrive said...

From a mom of "only" six, I feel ya. I have dreams every now and then about what it would be like for Hubs and I to run away (for a whole hour!) and be people instead of just parents. Our bishop wanted to meet with us together last Sunday and I told him, "How?" Who is going to watch our six while we're in your office?
You and your crazy husband are awesome! I love reading your blog and seeing the highs and lows of your lives. You drive and cooking 1000 ears of corn and tons of meat pies and getting 100 meals in the frig before soccer season inspire me.
And for those days when it just gets hard and "those balls start to fall," know that you've got other moms out there praying for you (and ourselves, too). And yes, I really, really hope my wonderful, amazing, dirty half dozen that I love with all my heart RUN AWAY and get married and have wonderful lives with their sweethearts so that I can have some much needed time with mine.
You rock.

Kathy said...

I have 11 kids and I totally get you! I was thinking today as I was folding laundry that I have been doing the same things for 32 years nonstop! You would think that I would have figured it all out by now...not so much. But they do grow up and then you miss them like mad!!!! I have only 4 left at home and I hate for my "baby" to grow up to fast!