Friday, October 22, 2010
This is what crazy people look like
Just in case you were wondering who would be crazy enough have nine kids...
That would be us.
I love being a mom. That's all I've ever wanted to do.
But, being a mom to nine kids is different then being a mom to one or two.
Reality is that having nine kids can be very hard.
But you probably already guessed that, huh?
We don't expect anyone to help us out because we are the ones that wanted these kids. They are ours and we should be the ones taking care of them.
But, sometimes we would give just about anything for a break from all this.
Especially when it seems like our ship is going down...and fast.
Because sometimes the work seems like too much.
When the laundry takes on a life of it's own.
When all the dishes are dirty.
When the house is a disaster zone so much that you are either stupid or brave to walk though a room in the dark...cuz it is like a minefield.
When all the balls that I've been trying to juggle start falling.
When I have a day that I just feel so overwhelmed with all that needs to be done.
And I get depressed that I don't have enough time to fit it all in.
And I feel under pressure to "do it all" and "be it all".
Or jealous when I look at other families that have a lot of family support.
Or see other mothers that have time for hobbies.
Or when my kids screw up and I feel totally inadequate and become convinced that I'm failing at my job of motherhood.
But, somehow, we still go on.
And thankfully the negative feelings go away.
We get back on track.
We refocus on the positives in our life.
On the fun things.
On the important things.
On all the people/things that we have been blessed with.
On our relationships and how much we love each other.
We still have bad days.
And it is still hard.
Would I do it all over again?
Ha! Totally kidding!
Of course I would.
I love all these kids to little freakin bits and pieces.
Plus, someday, they will all move out...